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A big thank you to all the mates for remembering my nineteenth birthday! =) Hehe. I thank cher, fa, jil, su, shid, zul and lionel for the great prezzies!! I loved the shirts. I loved the card (it's fa's creation, btw). I loved the superlipgloss.I loved the lip-chain. And f'course, i loved the hugs although erm.. Waaaahaa. (Their hugs are scary, I tell you! No kiddin!) Once again, thank you much2.

- applying layers (many, many) of superlipgloss on the upper lip-

i only have one wish for my nineteenth birthday. That is, to pass my exam (well). =) It sucks when exams are near Raya. NYP doesn't know how to plan timetables, be if for academic or clinical. Nyehh.

-applying layers (many, many) of superlipgloss on the lower lip-

Selamat Berpuasa everyone and hope you guys have a great Raya. Semoga dimurahkan rezeki dan bahagia selalu. =)

- eh, so fast finish already? i told them, they should've bought two-

I sent off my aunt/uncle at the airport yesterday. They were going for Umrah, planning to finish the last days of Ramadhan and welcome Syawal there. I hope they had a safe journey.

The airport was divided into 2 mini towns yesterday. One one end, its a Geylang Serai. On the other, its a Little India. The place was packed! It seems as if Raya was y'day. Geez. My head was throbbing as i tried to get around. I dislike crowds. And then, it was off to buka with the cousin. Finding a place to eat was another issue altogether. Popeye was just like another KFC and the queue at Swensens was terrible. It was 6.30pm and we still haven't decided where to eat. After much debate, we decided to hail a cab and eat at Tampines.

Cab fare was so not worth it. There was a $5.00 airport surcharge plus an extra $2.00 surcharge for the peak period or sumthing. The cab has not started moving and we already had to pay $9.50. Goodness. How come the last time( a year ago) I took a cab from terminal 1, there wasn't any surcharges. Hmm....

And then we ate at Kampung Eden. Reasonable prices and the food was quite palatable. In the end, we broke fast at 7 plus.

After buka, we decided to jalan-jalan at Tampines. My sweet cousin bought me an early birthday prezzie. A new pair of sandals! =) Thankew, kak nur. Hehe. We walked, walked and walked until we decided its time to go home.

The last 2 days were great. Bonding sessions with the pals and cuzzie. =) Okay, time to study already.

Another week (7days, 168 freakin hours) has passed and i have yet to start preparing for the exams! Procrastination dominates once again. Sheesh.

On a brighter side, I ended the week with a nice trip out with the gang. =D The trip was planned wayy but we almost had to cancel it becoz many people couldn't make it. Suddenly at the last minute tho, everybody was able to make it and so, out we go! Talk about impromptu. =)

We headed to sgh first and visited shid's mum. That woman was so nervous (hell, i don't know why =P) about bringing us to see her mum. Don't worry k, we are very civilised, pleasant people. (we'll hide our tanduks just for a while) Haaaaha. Anyway, I pray she has a speedy recovery. InsyaAllah. =D

And then, we're off to ViVo City at Harbourfront. Huge place. Nice decor and i love their lime green stools. i love the view too. =) toys-r-us just makes us go insane. really insane. i think toys-r-us are gonna ban us from entering again lest we start destroying the toys in excitment. Hehe. (p.s: we wrestled with barney)

Buka at Simpang Bedok!! Simply delicious. Especially the chicken cheese roti-john (shown below).

Overall, a great bonding session with the mates. Stomach full = I happy. =D Time to hit the pillows now.

P.S: Good luck fa/zul for your inter-varsity debate competition tmr. I sincerely wish you guys all the best. Truly am sorry that I cannot be there to cheer you guys on but I know you guys won't disappoint me!! Do your best. Gambate!!

Phobia (fo-be-a): 1.A persistent, abnormal, and irrational fear of a specific thing or situation that compels one to avoid it, despite the awareness and reassurance that it is not dangerous.
2. strong fear, dislike, or aversion.

I randomly googled the word 'phobia' and guess what i got. I was directed to "The Phobia List" webpage. I never knew there were soooooo many different types of phobia. From A to Z. You just name it, they have it. And some ridiculous ones too.E.g. If you are a afraid of Japan/ Japanese people, you have Japanophobia. Weird right? Well i guess this list is not exhaustive coz they missed out Mat-nophobia & Minahs-nophobia. Locals would understand what I mean. Heh.

Why exactly do we develop phobia? Perhaps, it's due to a past traumatic event. Yeah, I think most probably. Is there any way to cure phobia then? Phobia-factor maybe? So, if I win then I can say phobia is definitely not a factor for me! Heh. But seriously, is there any cure? Or anything to lessen the fear/dislike?

I have aquaphobia. For the dimwits, it means having a morbid fear of drowning. I hate going near the sea, near swimming pools, near reservoirs or any place that collects enough water to drown me. I seriously AM afraid. I think the reason I develop this phobia is because I almost drowned before. In the sea. It was a terrible experience, I tell you. Everything was dark, your mind goes blank, you can't breathe and you hear voices telling you that you are dying. If my darling cousin hadn't pulled me to safety, I probably would be in heaven (or hell, whichever) now. Learn swimming? Yeah right. I'm fated to be the damsel in distress. Heh.

One of my dear friends has (hmm, wait lemme check what's the name) herpetophobia. Ok, can't blame you peeps out there if you can't figure this out. It means having a fear of reptiles or creepy crawly things. For her, its specifically LIZARDS. She doesn't have to see it. Just the mention of it makes her all jumpy and uneasy. I tell you, she does her very, very best to avoid this creepy crawly. There is a sheltered walkway from the MRT station that leads to my school. And this sheltered walkway happens to be the lizards haven. Can you imagine her agony everytime she walks to and fro? Haaaha. Poor girl. She has to use the hood of her jacket to cover her head everytime! I understand your fears girl. I truly do coz I too, have my own phobia.

Its really a feeling one cannot control. Takut means takut lar... We're not cowards okay. We just can't help it.

So everybody, be nice okay. Stop being cynical. Stop saying "its just a lizard lor". It may be just a lizard to you but to others, it means another thing altogether. =)

Finally, after sooo many nights of doing research, preparing the slides and what-have-you, the ICAs are over! Whee! nannynannypoopoo.. =D Just have to submit one last written assignment by god knows when. Week 27 i think.

My emotions are screwed. There's like a zillion feelings in me now. i can feel my heart racing and my pulse bounding, but i don't know why. i try to freeze my emotions, single them out and try to resolve them. But i can't. It just keeps pouring in. At an increasing speed. I feel as if i'm in a car with Michael Shumacher taking the driver's seat. =( i'm trying so hard to breathe now. -inhales slowly- trying. -exhales slowly-

So many emotions all at once. Happy, sad, bitter, regret, etc. Oh gosh, i sound like i'm psychologically imbalanced. Bleargh. anyway,this never happened before. I guess, maybe i've drank too much tea (caffeine overdrive?). maybe.

several minutes later,

phew. im feeling quite all right now. the heart's still racing quite a bit though. -takes deep breaths-

You could have said thank you. You could have given us constructive feedback. You could have accepted the brochure, diary and slide handouts. Even if you refused, you could have said no, thank you. You could have been more partial. You could have been more pleasant. You could have been more sensitive. But, you DIDN'T.

You chose to be a petty, prejudiced bitch with make-up more colorful than that of the rainbow. So much for being an oncology nurse with more than 20 years of experience. No wonder the mortality rates of onco patients have increased steadily over the years. No wonder..... Hmm.

I know I'm not supposed to be bitching during this holy month. But, I just had to get it out of my system. Just had to, otherwise I'll start voodoo-ing. Heh.

Oh well, its over now. We gave it our best shot. And i'm really proud of ourselves. To hell with what she thinks. Well done mates. =) If she doesn't want our work, I'll keep it. I'm sure our products would be better off with me. =)

This morning, I saw my lil' bro made a card. Guess for who? It was for himself.


So kesian rite? I always thought childrens' day was just like any other typical day. Even when I was still a child, I still thought so. It wasn't of any great importance. At least, to me. But alas, I was wrong. I didn't know that childrens' day meant a great deal to my brother. I felt sad and guilty when I saw him made a card for himself. =(

I know that I'm not the best sister you could ever have. I know that I'm harsh towards you most of the time (must be my hormones). I know that I tease you a lot, even to the extent of making you cry. I'm sorry. That's just what I am. I have difficulty expressing myself especially in front of my loved ones. But remember one thing tho, your sister loves you. =)



Anyway, happy childrens' day to you and children everywhere. =) - sings semoga bahagia -


p.s: I did make for him a card okay. Its just that i woke up real late and forgot to give it to him.