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I went to watch the dikir comp at ngee ann poly wif my cuz juz now.. we came late so we onli managed to catch the 2nd half of the event. But nevertheless, the 2nd half was still awesome! definitely worth my six bucks.... the performance put up by the schools were great man.. very 'semangat'. I preferred the boys' dikir compared to girls' dikir.. Not because of the lack of eye candy but the boys' dikir were more powerrrrr... more energetic, more oomph... the girls' dikir were a bit slow...so can't really feel their enthusiasm.

ITE Tampines came out champions with SP coming in second (i tink). can't remember wich one actually. so, congrats to them. Its quite sad that panjy sri temasek didn't win coz their performance was good... seimbang. Haiz.. what to do.. menang kalah adat pertandingan... try your luck again next time. I must add tt the team from hai sing catholic was also great. The lower sec students were so cute... macam budak2 primary sch.. so small in size... Inilah harapan2 kita di masa hadapan.

The only downside of this event was the HUMONGOUS amount of mats and minahs tt i met. Not forgetting also the rampant public display of affection.... i shall not continue to write about them. full stop. waste of my time.

piala khatulistiwa rawk on!! i shall watch it again next year... and i promise i'll bring you, fa... jgn sedih lar.... haha

p.s: pardon my poor language... for all my entries actually. i feel as if i've let all my english teachers' down man... rest assured that i don't usually write like this in my essays and official documents....

My step-grandma passed away this morning. Innalilahi wainnalilahirajiun ( i dun really noe how to spell it out but i guess all the felllow muslims out there should noe what this means) tt's why I took the "chinoneh" song off my blog.... as a mark of respect..

Cause of death: cerebral thrombosis. To put it simply, she suffered from a brain stem stroke, which means before she passed away, she was already diagnosed as brain dead. I may not be close to her but i'm still saddened by her demise. I pray that her family, esp my grandad would be strong and move on with their lives... insyaallah.

Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohmu. Amin.

i finally learnt how to upload songs on my blog... thks fadd for teaching me... -winks- Fa asks me: Why lagu chinoneh? Well, its because the other songs i have are too emo for my blog... this song is in cantonese so can't tell whether its emo or not... hehe but, its nice... i like it.

Wokay, I managed to last 5 days of boredom w/o my bro and dad. How i got through it? i have no idea. All I know is that I have been slacking throughout these 5 days... watch tv.eat.sleep. tt's all i do... okay, plus cleaning up the house a bit. Aarggh.. tt reminds me. I have 2 more weeks of attachment to complete. I can't wait for it to end. I'm already in the hols mood and i really dread going back now esp after SLACKING for 1 week. hopefully, after attachment, i'll be off to melb for 3 weeks. i'm so excited... i wanna experience winter...

Hmm... but i can't bear to leave my mum alone. Imagine her living alone in a 5 room flat... So depressing rite? Seriously, I really pity my mum. Seeing her slogging her butts out to support the family really makes my heart ache. I want to graduate stat. I wanna start working stat. i wanna make moneh ($$$$) STAT!! then, she won't have to work so hard. i feel ashamed living off her.. its ok moonie... 2 more years and soon, it'll be my turn to repay her, support her.. I know mothers' day is over but hu cares... I LOVE U UMI!!. thank you for being my pillar of strength thru all these years. thank you for all emotional, spiritual and material support u've provided me with all these years. Muacks... Project Playpack: ON or OFF ?

4hrs and 17 minutes... yes, they've left for melbourne already. Insyaallah, they're gonna reach there at 23 20 (s'pore time). Can't believe that I actually cried at the airport. ( i wasn't wailing, screaming or anything). I was suddenly overwhelmed by a feeling of sadness. I told myself not to cry but the next moment, tears were already rolling.... Haiz, i'm sooo not the strong. But seriously, i miss them already. My mum is on the night shift today so yes, I'm alone at home right now. I hate this. I'm soo grateful to the people who created 'music'. At least, its not so sunyi now....
I guess i'm going to spend the next few days cleaning the house. I won't feel so bored and lonely then. I don't feel like going out....lazy. Its finally break and i wanna hibernate in the house. Give my legs a rest...At least, i don't have to stand all day... Hopefully, i won't get varicose veins...

When is school starting?? i miss school... i miss seeing all my friends... i miss yong... hehe. Attachment is wearin me out... only 5 weeks and i'm already complaining... did i forget that i was supposed to do this all my life?? I don't hate attachment. Its really fun and I learnt a lot. Its just that i'm TIRED... i just have to get used to it.... what to do? I'm not paris hilton, awaiting to inherit millions...

Ayah and luqman leaving for melbourne tomorrow.... Haiz, I'm soo sad. -sob sob- They are still here but I'm already starting to miss them. =( I'm going to be so lonely... Its not like I'm not going to see them again.... prob during my hols... but.. the feeling is different. We'll be living in 2 different countries, no, continents actually. (Australia is a continent by itself rite..... I hope i got this rite... i'm really poor at geography) I won't get to see them everyday like i'm used to now. I'm really going to miss that lil' rascal.... Aaargghh!! He can be annoying at times but he's still my baby brother after all... I wish they didn't have to go. I hate goodbyes... =(

I'm also gonna miss my dad's green bean soup... One and only sia... He always cooks it for me, yes, specially for me. When I come back home from attachment, I have dessert to eat. Never got sick of eating it. Okay, i'm going to cry soon. Maintain moonie...maintain. -takes a deep breath- Soon, I'll have no more dessert... Must cook myself. I hate thinking of the fact that i will be going back home to an empty house after tomorrow. Umi will be working from 8 to 8, so she won't be back till bout 9. I'll be soo lonely. I dislike being in an empty house. It soo...cold, lifeless, gloomy and I hate that. I feel insecure.

What to do? Separation is inevitable in a person's life. I'll just have to accept it. I just wish them bon voyage & semoga mereka selamat sampai di melbourne esok. Insyallah.

p.s: To luqman.. if you come back talking to me in a funny accent, i'm going to jotos your kepala!! Jgn lupa bahasa melayu oi.... All the best my dearest. Love you loads, millions....

Buprenorphine Hydrochloride a.k.a Subutex is a narcotic agonist/antagonist. It is an opiod medication similar to other opiods such as morphine, heroin and codeine. However, it produces less euphoric effects and hence, may be easier to stop taking. It is used as a pain reliever and treat opiate addiction.[e.g. heroin addcition]

Okay...so what's all these info for? Well, i watched the news yesterday and heard about the drug addicts abusing Subutex together with Dormicum. Subutex is supposed to help these addicts kick their addiction but look what happened now... They are abusing it. To make matters worse, Subutex is not a controlled drug in Singapore. Hence, if a person is found to be in possession of it, or having consumed it, he is not seen as running foul of the law. Since consuming subutex is not a crime, it'll encourage these addicts to continue abusing them and there goes the efforts to kick the addiction. According the papers, the Health Ministry said that it would issue the guidelines and prescription of subutex soon. I really hope that they'll do something about it real SOON. I seriously think that subutex should be classified as a controlled drug... Anyone to second that?

Abusing subutex is bad enough but abusing it together with Dormicum[or any other drug] is really foolish. Yes, it makes you high... but do you know that there are such things called DRUG INTERACTIONS?These two drugs have different chemical properties and when combined, they will cause serious damage to your body.

I don't know why these people abuse drugs and i might not know the answer after all. I know I shouldn't be judgemental towards them... I'm not them and I have no right to say that they are "bad" or they are a " disgrace to society". Whether or not they want to reform, its their own choice. It is their life after all and we have no right to control them. All we can do is to offer them support and hopefully one day, one very fine day, they will kick the habit and start a new lease of life.

But for those who have not started abusing drugs, please don't start... Like they always say prevention is better than cure... K, I sound naggy now. I better stop.

Finally, i have my own blog template!! The epitome of klutziness... Credit goes to my dear Fa.. thanks girl.. i really appreciated it. Muacks to you! And yes, i'm updating now. Dun rush me lar... You have 2 weeks break but i'm still on attachment...

Aniwaez, today was my first day at the medical ward. It was quite boring.. nothing much to do. The layout of the ward was different from the previous one so I was quite disorientated for the earlier part of the day. Haiz.... i dislike changes but what can I do? Change is part and parcel of life. So, I must learn to adapt... yesh moonie... Adapt! Adapt! Give me a few more days and i'll be back to optimal mode. Attachment without jil, yu xuan, yao zong and gulshan is DULL!! Man, I miss them. Come back soon guys... No more jokes, laughter. Everything is all so solemn. Can't gossip bout hippie anymore... -sob sob- (k, moonie lost her conscience YET again)

And today is definitely my unlucky day. I was pinched and punched by this uncle... (first thing in the morning) my pt f'cos. Just wanted to transfer him and he started saying all these #@%&*^$%#@!#$$%^!! As weak as he is, his pinch and punch was quite forceful! It hurts like hell.. I was on the verge of crying.. I'm not kiddin you... Sakit... but i managed to calm myself down. I found out later that he was like that. You need to be EXTRA gentle when handling him. If you're slightly rough, he'll start swearing and get violent. That's not the end of my unlucky day. I was stuck in the lift (after my shift). The lift remained at level 4 and it did not move. Were stuck for like 10-15 minutes before that stoopid lift started moving again. Thank god the ventilator and lights were still working. Otherwise, it'd be so stuffy... Ppl there take note: Please repair lift 6!! If i get stuck again tomorrow, i'm gonna kick all your arses. Gotta end here coz i'm on the morning shift tomorrow. Gotta rest... Can't wait for the 3 weeks break... Den can go relax in melbourne!!

It was my last day at the surgical ward... How time flies. 3 weeks gone just like that. i'm gonna miss the people there... = ( but, i'm sure our paths will cross again one day... Thanks for all the guidance that you guys gave me throughout my whole posting there... really apreciated it. i feel really bad that i'm the only that pass the surgical posting. That cina-faced woman with the aussie accent failed everyone else in the ward. How could she man? We're only in year 1... there's no need to be sooo strict.. Because of her, i've to go alone for my VTP attachment. Damn tt woman... Anyway, ppg's result was finally out. It was not suprising that she failed but her grades really shocked me. How could anyone give the student a grade of 9/100? That's just plain absurd. I admit that I always pick on ppg and make fun of her but now, I really pity her.... I mean, it was not easy for her to enter nursing... with these results, i really wonder what her parents would say. (p.s: They objected to her being a nurse) Poor girl... Try harder and sorry for always being mean to you... (Moonie FINALLY found her conscience.... ) To jilin, yu xuan and the rest, I hope you guys make it. Life's really dull without you people. -sob sob- So, hope to see you guys in 53 soon. I have to go back to school tmr to hand in my clinical diary.. Haiz... Will be meeting fa there... yay.. get to see her again after 3 weeks. can't wait! =)

the results that i have been waiting for is finally out.... Alas, i can heave a sigh of relief. Alhamdullilah....i did well. managed to score several distinctions. (YAY!) the hard days of mugging hadn't been in vain after all... But, the most important thing is, I have improved as compared to the last semester. go moonie.... go... i hope fa and the rest did well too... esp tt fa.. she really worked her butts off for the exams... Good luck girl! Tt's all in my blog actually... just wanna share my happiness around... :D